Rest In Peace Parker

I just wanted to take a second and acknowledge one of my good friends who left this world recently.

I met Parker around 2009 when he was just a youngen. Hell, he’s still a youngen. He would have been 27 this June.

He had an accident a few years back when he fell off a roof that left him in a coma and with brain issues, and we weren’t sure he was going to make it. He pulled through and it truly was a miracle.

However, after that he was always followed by the darkness. He eventually succumbed and it finally took him.

I hope he knows how much he is going to be missed, even though he didn’t think so. And even though I wasn’t there when he left – I hope he knows that I am with him now and forever.

Praying for his friends and family, also, who are feeling this loss so deeply in their hearts.

I pray that Parker is now set free from all of the darkness that walked with him while he was on this earth. Because no matter what, he was a light and a beautiful soul and still is.

I love you Peter Parker. You always got a place in my heart.

Therapy

This one’s going to be rough, excuse me while I use my blog as more of a “therapy” instrument than usual.

We’re coming up on some big numbers for me. I just passed the 1 year mark of me choosing sobriety – again – and I’ve done really, really well… minus one bump in the road.

Regardless of the bump, I’ve decided not to discount the days sober over the mess up because that’s not right. I’m giving myself credit where it is due. And for an addict – every second counts.

My youngest son turns 20 on the 9th of April, so that’s a big deal. All of my children are going to be in their 20’s. Life is extraordinary.

The 15th of April would mark the 20th wedding anniversary for Lee and me… had we stayed married. He divorced me in 2013 when I was in prison and that was probably one of the saddest things in my life.

We are dating again and when I tell people, they always smile and say things like, “I love that story!” or “Good for you guys!

But it hurts my heart every single time. Which is why, if I don’t feel like explaining, I just call him “husband” and he calls me “wife.” He doesn’t like to discuss the married, not married thing and says, “We might as well be.” I say, “Sure, sure.”

Does it matter in the scheme of things? The IRS says yes. God says yes, according to some sources. But these days the answer is usually no. I’ll let you decide for yourself.

It’s also the anniversary of the day that I believe I was with a young man in spirit when he died and crossed over. It is something that will never leave me. I count that as my near death experience because not only did I think I was dying but I believe that I experienced what it feels like to take the first step into “heaven” and also let go of the weight of the world to do so.

Speaking of weight, I feel as though I just let go of some and feel better.

I convinced Lee to do a 6 week challenge with me through crossfit and we started yesterday so maybe the word “weight” won’t be so touchy for me soon… maybe.

And, oh my, what bizarre dreams and visions I’ve had lately! I see a black hole when I close my eyes recently, that sometimes turns red… there’s a meaning, metaphor or something in that as well.

So, what do I owe you? And, thank you doctor. 😉

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My true identity

I poured a cup of tea and spoke my intentions of the day into it and drank it up. I had bought some bath salt with pink Himalayan salt in it a few days ago and it called to me.

I got in the bath tub and instantly started hearing encouraging words and revelations in my head. I felt that the movements I was making went beyond this physical realm. When I washed my face and body I felt that I was cleansing away a days worth of cosmic dust.

I then dried off and went upstairs to an empty bedroom where I opened the window and the screen and lay on the bed in my towel with the sun directly on my face.

When I closed my eyes I saw the colors of the rainbow and when I opened them I saw the most beautiful, pure and angelic light. It was so pure that it almost moved me to tears.

“It is so beautiful” I thought. And a voice in my head spoke and said, “What if I told you, that the beautiful light… is you?”

I was moved and grateful to have experienced this and my connection with the other side felt absolute and true.

My higher self let me know that I no longer need to search for my true identity. That it is not necessary for me to know who I am in any other realm in order for me to do my work here on earth.

But I do know this: I have the wings of an eagle and the face of an angel and I. Am. Light.

20 Tips for the Newly Awakened

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To those who are just now coming on-line to the light and the love that is:

I realize that many individuals are starting to see, think and feel different from before. I have a few tips and tricks to help guide you through the process.

1 – When you see numbers such as 1:11, 11:11, or even 3:33 a lot – it is low key a message from your higher self, angels and ancestors. You don’t need to know what it means, although you can look deeper into it, but just know that you are being loved and guided every step of your journey.

2 – Watch a few movies like “Star Wars” and “The Matrix” to get just a feel of what is going on here.

3 – Realize that you don’t live in the world that you thought you did and that unlearning your whole education and starting over might be helpful. 😁

4 – If you feel yourself awakening – you more than likely will go through the “dark night of the soul,” which can be horrifying and real life scary but ultimately you will come through it stronger and more resilient than ever. (Dark night of the soul is basically you fighting your own demons and clearing you and your ancestors akashic records, which is awesome, by the way!, it lasts different amounts of time for different people)

5 – Realize that you are not alone… like, literally, ever. But it’s not scary or weird. The other dimensions that are constantly around you that consist of all kinds of energies can’t see you naked or anything, they just see your energy outline in a color of light that is your “aura.”

6 – Get used to “downloads” of information. Usually while you sleep or are in the shower. If you meditate, prepare for some serious connections and answers.

7 – Don’t try to figure it all out because it’ll drive you mad. You’re going to get pieces of so many puzzles and most of them don’t even go together but it doesn’t matter. Just hold on to them and stay strong, light and positive. They will all come together when they should. (Throw linear time out the proverbial window 😉)

8 – The main objective is love. Self love first, love for earth and other beings and creatures second. Third, love for everything else. Literally all love, all the time.

9 – Learn how to clean your energy and your space. So many different methods but a few are: burning sage, opening windows and doors and with rocks and crystals. I’m to the point where I can walk in any room and close my eyes and think of an energy “sonic boom!” And the whole place is cleared for me for a decent amount of time.

10 – Look for like minded groups about awakening, enlightenment, kundalini, ascension, star seeds, light workers, pleadians, lemurians, etc., and people having to do with all of that, on social media and follow them. You’ll learn a lot really fast. But remember, everyone’s awakening journey is different, so just take it for what it is worth. Apply what you like and discard what you don’t need.

11 – We create our own reality, so the more positivity, love, light, rainbows and butterflies you can throw at us, the better.

12 – Turn off the fake news and anything that brings your vibration down or makes you feel heavy. Also eat foods with that same thing in mind. Keep it light and light. Everything is energy and what you eat or pay attention to… you are.

13 – Realize muggles, who are not enlightened, nor do they want to be, are everywhere. You can spot them by their obsession with matrix issues such as politics, government and judgement. Love them, too, but don’t try to change their mind or convince them that matrix things don’t matter. They will find all of that out when they are ready. Just love them.

14 – Learn what true self care is and apply it to your life in every way possible. Stay hydrated, eat well and sleep as much as your body requires that is possible for your life.

15 – Understand that the universe and your higher self are in charge now and they may force things on you or away from you that you don’t understand at the time, but learn to trust the process. They know the ending and they know the road it takes to get there. Even if it’s rocky, it’s the best route for you on your journey and the best lessons will be learned and the best life will be experienced. So if they push a loved one away, or if somehow your job isn’t suiting you anymore and you all of the sudden have the desire to make changes in your life, don’t be afraid of change and don’t be afraid to fail. Because there is no fail. Only less regrets and more lessons learned.

16 – Yes, the universe wants you to clean up the planet. It’s true. Your sudden interest in getting rid of single use plastics and being concerned about waste management has a deeper purpose than you can even comprehend. So please, please, please do your part to reuse, recycle and waste not, want not. Gaia needs you desperately.

17 – Understand that what you whole heartedly believe today may not make sense tomorrow. It’s a continuous roller coaster of a learning experience. Understand that knowledge is infinite and just keeping an open mind and an open heart will go a long way.

18 – There is no longer “right” and “wrong”. That’s an ego thing that doesn’t matter. It is or it isn’t for each individual. And that may change tomorrow…

19 – Some people will feel the change. Some will see it. Some will know it. Any combination of those or all of the above, works. Just know that love, light and compassion will soon reign where darkness, greed and power have stood for too long.

20 – To summarize: Learn to manifest your best reality, love yourself, the earth and others and hold the light. And that’s how we create the future of prosperity and compassion for future generations.

Please learn to discern any information you come across because that will be your biggest ally. Also, feel free to ask me, or someone you trust who is going through this, about literally ANYTHING. Nothing is too weird or cooky for me.

There are books and websites and podcasts and feeds on all of this. Too much information, really. Don’t get lost in it all… or do.

I finally found answers with Victor Oddo, who helps guide you through the ascension process, and Lee Carroll, who channels “Kryon”. I would highly suggest either of them as resources for information.

Love, light and balance to you all. I truly love all of you and I’m so grateful to be here, right now.

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How to Read the Akashic Records and Heal Your Soul?

Dreams of Nibiru

I was instantly relieved to know that I was not of this planet earth but instead, stationed here for a purpose.

Everything became clear including gravity, history, dinosaurs, energy, magnets, polarity…

I saw myself in a mirror that was facing the sun and my face became half angel and half demon and there was no sign of my real face any longer. The demon was beyond frightening and the angel was beyond beautiful. And somehow both of these creatures resided within me.

However, I knew that something huge was coming soon to meld the duality of it all and that there was nothing anyone here could do to stop it.

The lies and cover ups ran so deep that it blew my mind every which way. I was understanding of the fear that the ones who knew had of widespread panic. I also felt the pain of every unknowing soul on this planet of its impending doom, who were attempting to live out their lives of pure deception.

I saw the day the alarm was finally sounded by someone who did it for the fame. It didn’t matter anyways, it was in vane, because it was already too late.

They can build bunkers and spaceships to attempt to hide from fate, but “resistance is futile” and the gravitational pull coming won’t spare the elite.

The prophecy of 2 suns in the sky was being fulfilled to the best of the ancients knowledge at the time. But Nibiru isn’t a sun, it is the 9th planet.

Planet X is approximately 5 times larger than earth and only passes by every 15,000 – 20,000 years.

The effect that its passing would have would change north to south, east to west and land masses will be changed dramatically, to say the least. There would be 3 dark days due to planet X passing in front of the sun on its epic journey.

There was no fear in my heart at the knowledge of this event. It actually lightened my spirit to know the truth and my purpose. Part of my job was to raise consciousness levels and awaken sleeping souls.

I awoke with peace and understanding at a possibility that resounded in my spirit.

Dreams are a trip 😉

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Are we changing the world by having an opinion?

If you could release your inner darkness and help heal the rest of your family and the world by simply letting go of hatred and judgement in the form of forcing your values on others and judging anyone for anything… and replacing all of that with love, compassion and understanding – would you?

No more time spent on politics, hate and rumor mongering, propaganda, name calling (i.e. millennials?), blaming, labeling, separating, walls, vaccines, abortions, guns or anything else meant to divide us. Because what good is all of that really doing? Are we changing the world by having an opinion? And forcing that opinion down others throats?

It is making us mean, hateful and hurtful. Period. That’s not how problems are solved. That’s how more problems are created.

When it comes time to vote, then vote. But until then, let’s make peace and stop pointing fingers and causing rifts where there doesn’t need to be any. And above all else; BE KIND.

If I told you, you absolutely could heal yourself and your family by doing this… would you?

Because you can. And what matters more than that?

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Beware the darkness…

I will gladly stand before everyone and say that I was wrong if I am, because that’s not even what matters. Regardless as to whether an event takes place or not, these things I talk about couldn’t hurt. But I do believe an event is coming.

I feel this within every ounce of my being to be not only possible but probable and even better; sooner rather than later.

I see shards of geometric shapes filled with white and blue light lately in my eyes and I feel the pressure of the lower dimensions being forced out of my body and space.

I want to learn the truth about humanity, planet earth and the universe without being deceived and I want to hold my true power back within myself that has been harvested and hidden from me for all of these years.

I want love and compassion to be first and foremost above any other thought or feeling and I want to stand with others who want this and shine God’s true light upon ourselves and the earth.

I want everyone who is feeling a struggle within themselves to recognize that there is a purpose for it. That purpose can be an end to the duality and darkness that they have fought with for so long.

If you choose it. You still have free will.

It is a beautiful ascension from the greed and materialistic, consumerist lifestyle that we have come to know and latch onto.

In these next few days before the equinox I pray that you hydrate, rest, eat healthy and release any darkness, hate or jealousy. Forgive every single person who’s ever wronged you and then forgive yourself. Love your neighbor and love yourself. If you feel a negative thought or judgment about anyone or anything (including yourself) immediately replace it with love and light.

The more you can prepare your body, mind and spirit for this shift the lighter and brighter you will be.

And beware of the darkness’ final and futile attempts to trick you and hurt you. You are stronger than them – plus, you already know the ending…

You win.

Love. Light. Balance. And some more love to you all.

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