Someone asked me the other day why I choose not to do drugs. That was a brilliant question
This is meant to be a P.S.A., btw.
Here are some truths that may trigger some and may enlighten others…
Selling drugs is like owning your own business. You’re a pseudo king and an entrepreneur, and people need you. You control how much you make and how much you spend and your product is always in demand. It’s a high in and of itself.
And drugs are mastered in a way to comfort and kill you all at the same time. I believe people are always searching for what it feels like on the other side because they miss that feeling, and drugs, initially, make you feel a similar type of euphoria. But not without a price.
I believe that this is why so many people who finally get out of the bullshit, drama of the drug life end up being successful as business owners.
Also, why so many people relapse back into it after choosing or being forced out of it.
My answer to the question of why I don’t do drugs had to be more than just the obvious “Because they’re bad,” because everyone knows that. Everyone knows that they take people from families and homes and lives from people. I tried to go deeper for an answer. And these answers are what I came up with.
One, I don’t want to sell drugs. And in order to pay for your own habit – I figured out years ago – you have to sell.
I got tired of seeing desperate faces who would do just about anything to get high. I got tired of some of the places you end up when buying or selling; they were sometimes dark in ways that would haunt you.
I got so tired of the demand and the excuses like when they told me they had the money before I got there and now that I’m there – they do not.
I got tired of everyone robbing everyone. It’s an every day occurrence. I got tired of people robbing me.
There are no real, true friends in the drug world. You literally can trust no one.
There is so much running around. It’s an endless cycle of hell. And it makes you the worst kind of tired and worn out.
The threat of prison, jail and death don’t even make some people bat an eye – but it’s a damn good reason not to for me. Those places are the most miserable places on earth.
I was tired of looking in the mirror and seeing unhealthy me and losing more of that natural glow and muscle mass.
I was tired of something controlling me to the point that I WAS willing to lose everything to keep doing it.
When you’re using – your energy changes and people can feel it. Even if they don’t realize you are using – they have a natural resistance to your energy. I hate that as well. People will immediately feel a sense of distrust and that kills me.
I hate smoke shops. There’s nothing worst than having to go into a smoke shop asking for a “bubble” or “love buddy”. Because even if you state that it’s for a friend (duh) – it is known that you are smoking meth.
Last but not least –
I got tired of seeing people that I love die; figuratively and literally.
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