I wasted many minutes of days staring at that face on that egg. The thing put me in a trance like state and I didn’t realize I was doing it until I would snap out of it. It was always with me either in my hand or in my purse. Sometimes I truly felt it had power over me and I was no longer at the helm in my vehicle of life.
My 17 year old, at the time, son Ty lived with us still on the first floor of the three story house and our bedroom loft was on the third floor. The floor plan was so that we never heard him down there and I don’t think he ever heard us upstairs either so I wouldn’t know if he was home sometimes or not.
One particular night he had taken one of Lee’s old work trucks out to visit friends. I never heard him leave but I saw the truck gone and he was not downstairs when I went to do laundry. I went to sleep around 10 PM, as usual, and ended up having the most bizarre and amazing dream that I think I’ve ever had.
I was standing on a mountain top with a native American girl who was not much older than my son. I could tell she was native because of how she dressed and her hair and also she spoke what sounded like a native tongue.
We stood on top of this mountain and looked at the world below us and also the colorful, vibrant setting sun that appeared larger than normal. We stood in silence for what seemed like a long time just enjoying and taking in the moment. She then took my hand and smiled at me and I felt warm and loved. All of the sudden we were being pulled upwards in the sky by a non existent force that lifted us up slowly and carefully.
She pointed down to the earth and I saw the copper mine that my house was at the base of. She spoke her native language which was somehow being translated in my head. She explained that the mine was an atrocity and an open wound to mother earth that they continued to dig and infect every day. She said the mine never should have been built there and that it was on sacred hallowed ground. She said the white man knew this and out of greed built it anyways. It brought me to tears and I wept for the monstrosity that I could see.
We were then lifted higher and higher until we were outside of the earth’s atmosphere. She pointed to regions of the earth and we wept for the neglect and misuse of this beautiful, wondrous gift that humans have that we are ruining without care.
She then spread her arms out as if encompassing the whole earth in her arms and showed me, in reverse, how the earth was born. All of the hundreds of thousands of lifetimes; the years of life, love, development, industry, war, countries rising and falling, species being introduced and then extinct and all of the things in between. I understood in an instant – where we had come from and where we were going.
The earth disappeared and we were silently floating in space. It was incredible. I was so happy, weightless, peaceful and relaxed. I looked at the girl and she smiled a sort of mischievous smile and winked at me. I started to smile back and suddenly was no longer weightless and I started falling back down backwards as I screamed the loudest blood curling, ear piercing scream that I could conjure up, and yet I knew, that no one could hear me.
TO BE CONTINUED…